The pain of Rejection

Lately as I examined my own journey from birth to becoming the servant of God I am today, I recognized many rejection points. I realize as I counsel and pray for many in the body of Christ that rejection is responsible for a lot of the issues faced by many today. It is responsible for lack of self worth and that inner ache that tends not to go away .  Our rejection points are numerous. Those times in life when we do not feel loved or accepted by a friend, family, church, neighbor, coworker, and the list continues. We are rejected for various reasons which leave us with feelings of inadequacy or inferiority. Everyone faces rejection in their lives at various times and this tends to leave an ache in our soul, it creates a crack that requires the perfect love of Christ to repair and heal.

Your rejection was not an accident. Rejection is a strongman that attacks our souls as a strategic move from the kingdom of darkness. His goal is to pile up so many instances of rejection from conception, through the womb and throughout our lives so that we will believe the lie that God cannot possibly love us. This spirit will come with his cohorts such as a lying spirit that makes us believe God does not care and our loved ones do not care. He comes with a spirit of death that will try to convince us to commit suicide because the lie of not being loved has set deep roots of self loathing. This spirit brings in so much more: anger, hurt, pain, infirmity, jealousy, isolation, strife and much more than we have time to cover here.

Sometimes we are on the other side of rejection; maybe we behave consciously or unconsciously in ways that leave others feeling rejected. Sometimes our actions towards others may be misinterpreted as rejection but oftentimes, we reject others because we have also been rejected. Rejected people reject others and the cycle continues.

The Bible says in John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. Although the enemy is using this strategy to steal, kill and destroy many children of God, we must trust that our Heavenly Father loves us so much and will never reject us. The Psalmist says in Psalm 27:10 Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will receive me. If you are hurting today because you feel rejected, press into the presence of the Lord.  Rather than keep trying to be accepted, loved or validated by those who reject you, run into the safety of the love of Christ. He is the only one who can bring healing to your wounded soul, he can restore you to a place of unconditional love. When everyone else disappoints you, remember that ‘For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son that whosoever believes in Him may not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16.  Only the love of Christ can set us free from the spirit of rejection.

Jesus understands what it feels like when we are rejected because he was also rejected and despised. Isaiah 53:3 He was despised and rejected by mankind, a man of suffering, and familiar with pain. Like one from whom people hide their faces he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.  Jesus bore rejection so that we can be adopted into the family of God as sons and daughters. No matter who rejects us, we should rejoice because the love of God in our lives is sure. Heb 4:15 says For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin.

For more in depth information and help on the topic of rejection, we will be covering this at our December 2016 Deliverance Session. stay posted on our ministry Facebook Page ‘The Children’s Bread’ by Atina Music Foundation.

Who should a Christian vote for?

Sometimes God appoints godly leaders like David to rule his people but sometimes God will also use an evil leader to bring judgment to his people as in the case of Nebuchadnezzar.( 2 Kings 20:17-18)

I am not your typical political enthusiast, I am one of those who barely cares to vote, I will drag myself there totally disengaged. I can hear some of you preaching to me now about how Christians must participate in order to ensure we select a godly leader who will look out for our values and beliefs. I somewhat agree with you but I also somewhat disagree. There are many ways we believers can contribute towards releasing the atmosphere of heaven on earth, one is by voting a godly leader but another is by each of us simply being as Christ like as possible. As a matter of fact, if all of us Christians were serious with our personal walk, I believe we will influence our society more for Jesus. We will be better examples for others to want to serve our Jesus. We will achieve more than one flawed politician voted into power with the hope that they will support Christian values. Also, if every Christian did those things that God has asked them to do to impact their country and community for Christ, be it in ministry or otherwise, the nation will be a very different one.

Am I saying participating in the political process is wrong? Certainly not. Recently I supported my gospel artist friend who is running for political office because she believes that God has given her an assignment. Whether you vote or run for office I believe must be done after seeking the will of God on your participation, not done because of pressure from your pastor or friends who try to sway you in their own political direction. 

My take on the Political season we are in? I see godlessness in both parties in America today. I see godlessness in both candidates. In my understanding of the Bible, murder, lying, homosexuality, abortion, racism, pride and so many more flaws we see in our candidates and parties are things God condemns in the Bible. Whether you claim your gun is your protector or you claim your rights to kill your unborn baby,  whether you lie in order to start a war in Iraq and kill many or you legalize same sex marriage, you have sinned. One sin is not worse than another sin. There is no big or small sin in the eyes of God. Killing an unborn baby is not worse than killing a grown man. As a believer, I see that this season, we have a tough choice, but let us be careful not to vilify a fellow Christian because they chose to vote someone who we disagree with. God can use a God fearing leader just like he can use an evil leader to accomplish his purpose for the times. There is no authority except that which God has established. ( Romans 13:1). God is about to chose a leader in America to establish them for his purpose in this season, let us pray for wisdom to align accordingly.

As Christians, I believe rather than squabble over whether our preferred candidate is the better of two evils, we should seek the Lord to understand the times as the sons of Issachar.(1 Chron 12:32) Of Issachar, men who had understanding of the times, to know what Israel ought to do, 200 chiefs, and all their kinsmen under their command. God can use either candidate to serve his purpose for America at this time. Let’s consult God for a better understanding of what He is wanting to do with America in this season and vote accordingly! My choice of candidate does not make me a better or worse Christian!

For Every Fake Louis Vuitton …

For every fake Louis or Gucci item out in the market, there is a genuine design worth so much more. The fake is always a distortion from the original, a sad replica of something so precious and valuable. The reason why there are fakes is because someone is trying to copy the real deal, someone wants to look like something they are not, someone wants to cheat. Those of us women  who love our real designer purses know that you have to know where to go to find  the originals,  we can tell you the difference between a fake and the genuine article. When we identify a real LV, we are willing to pay generously for it. Because we pay so much for it, we will care for it and it becomes something that stays in the family for long and provides us great satisfaction.

Ladies I know some of us are already at the designer mall in our minds looking for that perfect hand bag but slow down a minute. I am taking you today to a different kind of mall, in the open market square of spiritual leadership, a mall with all kinds of Pastors, Evangelists, Prophets, Apostles and Teachers. This mall was designed to carry only the best but it has been corrupted, copycats have infiltrated the market with cheap alternatives and now we struggle to tell the difference between the real and the fake. Because of this, some buyers have totally given up on buying designer goods for fear that they may be swindled into paying a hefty price for substandard stuff. Yes, some have stepped out in faith giving their all in search of God and ended up being taken for a ride by someone claiming to represent Jehovah!

If you are one of those who sees all men of God as charlatans, gold diggers, abusers, fakes,  know that for there to be fake pastors, there must be real genuine pastors. Do not give up on God! There are some true ministers of God out there that the fakes are trying to pose as. Do not classify all Pentecostal pastors or Catholic priests as fake because a pastor disappointed you in one way or because a priest molested a child you know. What you need to do is learn to discern between the real and the fake.  Here are some pointers:

Make the Bible your guide. You can only do this by getting into the word of God deeply. The Bible will show you the difference. Do not depend on your pastor for the word. If you don’t know your Bible, you are more likely to obey a request from a fake minister trying to take advantage of you.

Your pastor is not your God, do not worship him, do not follow him blindly, do not put him on a false pedestal because he is human. If you expect perfection from your pastor or spiritual leader, you will definitely be disappointed and the devil will use that opportunity to turn you away from God.

Recognize that simply because a servant of God makes an error does not make them fake. Everyone must learn by going through a season of training. Some men of God you may have encountered are still learning and growing in understanding and in their calling. There are things you did in the early years of your profession which you will not do that way today. You may encounter a proud pastor who turns you off but in 5 years time after God has broken them, they will be more humble and welcoming to you. If your pastor has a genuine weakness you identify, intercede in prayer for them.

Our differences in how we serve God does not mean that the pastor or church is fake. In many ways the Bible is prescriptive but in other ways God allows us flexibility in how we serve Him. Again as you study the word for yourself, you will know what Biblical teachings we cannot compromise on. Paul says in Gal 1:8 if we or an angel from heaven should preach a gospel other than the one we preached to you, let them be under God’s curse!

Our worship service can be an hour while your pastor preached for 3 hours, that is ok but if your pastor teaches you to sleep with him to get an anointing for marriage, then you know that is against the word of God and this pastor is a fake.

Measure everything against the word of God. Don’t just do things because you pastor said.  Be like the Bereans who verified whether Paul’s teachings were Biblical Acts 17:11  Now the Berean Jews were of more noble character than those in Thessalonica, for they received the message with great eagerness and examined the Scriptures every day to see if what Paul said was true. 

Get to know God for yourself. In addition to reading the word, let the Holy Spirit be your friend and guide. Test every spirit. 1 John 4:1 do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, because many false prophets have gone out into the world.

When you encounter those genuine men and women of God (yes there are many), honor and support them, uphold them in prayer because they go before God on your behalf and their calling is not easy. Heb 13:17 …for they are keeping watch over your souls. Uphold them morally and emotionally when they fall because they are human with imperfections just like you. Be generous financially in blessing them as they make so many sacrifices for the sake of the kingdom of God. I Timothy 5:18 You shall not muzzle an ox when it treads out the grain,’ and, ‘The laborer deserves his wages. Such will be a tremendous blessing in your life. Never give up on God because of a human being’s actions. Reject the fake pastors being used by the devil to corrupt the body of Christ. Remember that even when a true servant falls, our God is still God and worthy of our praise!

Purpose soars like an eagle

Purpose is calling someone today! Purpose is knocking on your door. You must get up and answer the call!

I am overwhelmed by the love of God in my life and I am so excited to be living the purpose for which I was born. Friends purpose trumps the need to aimlessly follow crowds and those in life who have nothing to do with your purpose. When you find your purpose, you are satisfied and fulfilled, you are grounded and cannot be shaken by contrary winds. Sometimes in life purpose will distance you from distractions that may seem attractive but yet futile. Purpose is strong enough to leave behind the superficial and not look back in regret. Purpose makes sacrifices. Sometimes you will lose friends when you go after your purpose but when all is said and done, purpose always wins. Purpose removes you from the trenches of shallow thinking and positions you in the company of high flyers, destiny helpers and connects you to those who already tred that path.

Purpose does not need human approval. It is divine! Purpose is the road less travelled that leads to a victorious destination. Purpose soars high like an eagle, alone sometimes but high above scavenger birds and aims for higher altitudes.

Stay focused on your purpose and as my girl Dr Nicoline Ambe will say “imagine’ the possibilities when you chase after your purpose. Purpose has vision even when it is surrounded by darkness. Purpose can see the way to the top. Imagine your future and may your purpose keep you on the path that will bring you all you need to be who God called you to be!

Do you see Frenemies?

God is calling someone to walk on water today. As I sat quietly in the presence of the Lord meditating on His word and His direction for my own life, I felt led to the story of Peter trying to walk on water. I have often felt like the space between my boat and Jesus is too wide. Even as I try to reach out to Him, I easily become distracted by the harsh winds that blow against my boat. If you are like me, Jesus may have asked you to “get into a boat and go on ahead to the other side” Matt 14:22. He is trying to take you to a new place in your life, to a higher destination! He may have given you an assignment and sent you on a journey riddled with road bumps and unexpected turns. The weather may have changed on you and you are buffeted by the waves, you may be experiencing contrary winds, winds that are against you.

I used to think that if Jesus sends us, it will be a smooth ride because we obviously are walking in God’s will. Maybe you are a more mature believer and you already understand that there will be obstacles even when God has given us a word to do something. We may know this but then we expect God to show up in out trials as soon as we call and do something to fix it. If you know me, you may know that I often pull a “Jacob at Peniel’ with the Lord and that He often touches the hollow in my thigh and leaves me even more dependent on him for my future. I have grown to enjoy these moments of ‘palapala’ with my Maker because while I may enter in confusion, frustration, disappointment and offense, I always come out more surrendered with a promise, I come out with an assurance of my future direction and the peace to rest in my process.

If you are wrestling with what God is doing in your life (Gen 32:24) because you are not sure if it is God, you are not alone. You may just be having a Penuel moment and your name is about to be changed. It is your season of transformation! If you are being tossed in the waves of life right now, I want to assure you that no matter how dark the night has been, Jesus always shows up before dawn. Matt 14:25. The challenge for most of us is that after a long night, we have a tendency to mistake Jesus for a ghost. Even when the Lord shows up and asks us to love that friend who betrayed us or to sacrifice for that family member one more time, we think it is the devil trying to take advantage of us. God is calling us to humble ourselves even though we think we are right. He is asking us to forgive that person even though they violated us in a time of weakness and betrayed our trust. God wants us to learn how to truly be vessels of honor in His hands by letting Him fill us with His spirit and use us to bring healing to those very people who abuse us and gossip about us daily. Are we filled with the Holy Ghost or are we filled with thoughts of anger, bitterness, hate, envy, unforgiveness, jealousy and all things evil? A vessel is a container used for carrying things by the owner. What are we carrying and who is our owner? You see, when we are filled with the wrong things, we are not able to recognize Jesus in our storm.

Our wilderness experiences are usually well orchestrated by our loving father who is watching every twist and turn in our lives and using them to grow us into Kingdom champions. He is using every challenge in our lives to purge us of all unrighteousness. He is bringing out all that which is in us that is not of him. Whatever rises in us or comes out of us in the time of trial is what we are carrying, it simply reveals what we are filled with. That boss may not be the real problem but your anger may be the issue God wants to deal with.

Don’t focus on the winds in your life because they will cause you to react the wrong way. Spending your energy fighting your “frenemies”, your boss, that crazy husband or that gossip of a friend will only cause you to sink to a low place of destruction. 2 Cor 10:4 For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds. Every wind coming against you is a distraction to take your focus away from Jesus and what He is doing in your life. A vessel is also a craft made to travel on water; you really are made to walk on water and not sink but you just have to keep your eyes on Jesus. Have faith and trust that God’s got this all under control! By the way you have company; we are all in the same boat!

A warrior is born: a true story of motherhood

It was about 4am on what was supposed to be a beautiful California Sunday morning. I woke up for a quick visit to the little room and as I looked down, what I saw gave me a horrible fright. It was a scarlet site that would change the trajectory of my life for ever. My off pitch scream was not the regular blend of soprano, alto and tenor sitting together perfectly in a soothing symphony but rather one that scared my husband running out of sleep to my aid. I cannot recall the drive to the hospital that cold morning but stamped in my memory is the quick response from the ER team as they gave me priority over others in an attempt to save the 5 month old baby I was incubating. As I lay on that ER bed with my husband hoping for the best, for once in my Christian life, I could not find the words to talk to my Heavenly Father. The Dr walked into the room and in a perfectly trained tone and neutral expression gave me my verdict. ‘ Ma’am I am sorry but we will have to let this child go, there is nothing we can do at this point. Although the baby is still alive, your water is all gone’. I was immediately numb and lay there with a blank stare on my face. After the Dr left the room, my husband held my hands and began to pray. Shortly thereafter, after inducing labor, I came face to face with my lifeless Caleb. As a newly married young couple, in all our confusion, we went with the hospital’s suggestion to cremate our son.

Two days later, I was back home with a deep feeling of emptiness. It was a gut wrenching pain that left me ready to begin the journey of my life. In this very space and time, Anita the warrior was born. The songwriter arose out of these cremated remains with a prophetic song that would tour the world and bring healing and deliverance to many that were beaten by life.
To be continued …

This Mother’s Day, while we celebrate the gift of motherhood, there are many who like me struggled and paid a painful price to become mothers. Some have buried children like me while others died trying to have children. Some never conceived while others lost their children through miscarriages. Some of you have lost grown up children. Whatever your situation as a mother, you may be reliving the pain today while others celebrate. Maybe you have lost some other dream that you were carrying  in the womb of your soul. You may feel like no one understands but I want you to know that the God who brought me through understands. I stand to testify today of how He gave me beauty for ashes. I pray that You will allow our loving father to heal you and use you to be a blessing to others as he has done with me. Stay strong and know that there is always light at the end of the tunnel. If you need prayer to help you along the path to your healing do not hesitate to inbox me. This Mother’s Day, God has an assignment for you, he wants to use you to be a mother to those who need someone to hold their hands. Sending lots of love your way. 💕💕💕

Stop Judging!

A true prophet’s first assignment is to preach repentance so that the people can change their ways and draw near to God. This is the whole point of Christianity. Christ left his throne to die on the cross so that we can have a way of being reconciled to the father as sinful beings. There is no way to appropriate the benefits of the cross without repentance. I cannot say this enough! Before the blessing comes, there must be repentance. There are so many of us today who would identify as born again spirit filled children of God but the moment we are faced with a call to repentance, we cry foul and accuse the servant of God of being judgmental. We love those Facebook posts and chain letters that simply ask us to type amen and claim our blessing now. We apply the microwave principle even to our Christianity! We will quickly forward those chain letters that ask us to send to 12 people and a blessing will appear in our lives in 7 hours time. My God is not a magician! If only it was this easy to amass wealth and health so many of us would abandon true commitment and service to God for the easy way out. Reminds me of satan appearing to Jesus after his 40 day fast and promising him the world if he would just bow down and worship him. Matthew 4:9 “he said, “if you will bow down and worship me.”
Today the enemy is still promising us the world with cheap scams. He is using Pastors who only preach prosperity, those who preach grace without holiness, those who ask us to send chain letters to our friends in return for quick magical answers to our prayers. He is even using deliverance ministers who lie to us that when we sew a seed offering and they pray for us, we will live a problem free life. Don’t get me wrong, God does answer prayers and he still uses his prophets sometimes to miraculously bless us but this is not the full story of salvation. The enemy is still calling us today to bow to our idols of materialism and instant gratification. He is still promising us a problem free life without repentance and obedience to the word of God.

Our God left his glorious throne and came to this messed up world, suffered for you and I, died on the cross and rose again so that we would be saved. If Jesus suffered all this what makes us think that we can get through life by simply buying miracles or sending out chain letters? Jesus said we must pick up our cross and follow him. Luke 9:23. Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. He said we would be persecuted just like he was. I do not see anywhere in the Bible where Jesus taught us that we could get through life by a lying spirit promising us cheap prosperity through the mouth of a Pastor. On the contrary I see many calls to repentance, many calls to holiness, I see promises of blessings after obedience, I see Paul saying he wants to know Christ through his suffering. Phil 3:10 I want to know Christ–yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death. If anyone is telling us that we can be blessed without changing from our sinful ways, I would keep my distance. The abundance of prosperity gospel teachers has created a body of believers who mistake a call to repentance for judging. We are quick today to say ‘stop judging’ or ‘let God be the judge’ and yet Christ commanded us to preach the full gospel, a gospel that should convict us of our sin and cause us to change. God expects us to preach to each other. Luke 24:47 states, “and that repentance and forgiveness of sins should be proclaimed in his name to all nations, beginning from Jerusalem.”

Luke 17:3 says Pay attention to yourselves! If your brother sins, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive him. God permits us to rebuke each other in love. Anytime you feel like someone is judging you, take a minute and go before your creator and let the Holy Spirit convict you in love to repent and draw closer to your Heavenly Father. We are after all our brother’s keeper! Upon the foundation of repentance sits all the blessings we have been chasing after!

Club Alive and Church Dead!

It is very rampant for us to spend our youth in the club partying and our middle age in the clubhouse with fellow golfers enjoying the lavish lifestyle and before we die, we request a christian burial. Excuse my Christianese but what exactly is a “Christian burial”? oh! I get it now, it means take my corpse to church and let the priest or pastor utter some words over it before we put it back in the ground. By the way if that corpse is in America or Europe, be sure to ship it to the country of origin after all it was “made in Cameroon”. Talk about misplaced priorities!

I may not always be the sharpest knife in the drawer so someone please help me here. What exactly are we hoping to achieve by the corpse being taken to church? Do we believe that the pastor has a hidden way of getting us into heaven through the service he will perform? Or is it that the famous pearly gates to heaven can be found somewhere in the church building? Better yet, I heard that Jesus is the way, the truth and the life, I mean the only way, so maybe we are believing that although we spent our lives running away from church, we can find Jesus here in death. If this same pastor/prophet was fake in life, what makes us trust him in death to manage out grand exit from earth into heaven? My brain is now on overtime. For real folks, what exactly is our thought process here?

Jesus has always been relegated to one who does not count much through out the history of mankind. Man has always thought that he knows better and that he is master of his own destiny. Proverbs 14:12 ‘There is a way which seemeth right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death’. Man has always done things his own way and not bothered much to find out about what the creator thinks. The way we see things is really not going to count in the end. How we process our exit from earth with our village ceremonies which include many satanic rituals and  last for days on end will do nothing for us. Let me help us all with this truth; Jesus calls the shots! Jesus has already determined how to get to heaven and I suspect that deep down, even though we tend not to live lives that are obedient to the ways of God, we know this truth. Our soul knows this truth. This is the reason why an unbeliever will make a request on his dying bed to be given a church burial. The sad fact is, a church burial will not get us into heaven, knowing Jesus while we were alive is what will.

Let me leave you to ponder on the word of God. Ecclesiastes 12:1 Remember your Creator in the days of your youth, before the days of trouble come and the years approach when you will say, “I find no pleasure in them”. If you are looking to make heaven you will have to get the right keys to open those pearly gates. Verses 13-14 say ‘The conclusion, when all has been heard, is: fear God and keep His commandments, because this applies to every person. For God will bring every act to judgment, everything which is hidden, whether it is good or evil’.

Jesus is Lord, he is the way the truth and the life. He is keeping tabs of our club activities just like he is of our church activities. Draw nigh to him now  and secure your pass to heaven.

 

Truth Nugget – RIP?

Friends the time to pray and seek the Lord is now oh, not when someone has died and then we start praying for their souls to rest in peace. Rest in peace actually means nothing to be honest. If you pray and serve God now, you are assured a place in his bosom. If you do not have time for God now and you die, no matter how much your family and friends pray for you to rest in peace or for you to rest in the Lord’s bosom, you will be a candidate for eternal damnation. I know most people don’t like these kinds of messages but this message is true love. We the servants of God need to stop fooling our people with messages that will not help their souls. The truth will help us all to position correctly before we die. As we say in Camer pidgin “pack fine” now oh!

You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free!