A warrior is born: a true story of motherhood

It was about 4am on what was supposed to be a beautiful California Sunday morning. I woke up for a quick visit to the little room and as I looked down, what I saw gave me a horrible fright. It was a scarlet site that would change the trajectory of my life for ever. My off pitch scream was not the regular blend of soprano, alto and tenor sitting together perfectly in a soothing symphony but rather one that scared my husband running out of sleep to my aid. I cannot recall the drive to the hospital that cold morning but stamped in my memory is the quick response from the ER team as they gave me priority over others in an attempt to save the 5 month old baby I was incubating. As I lay on that ER bed with my husband hoping for the best, for once in my Christian life, I could not find the words to talk to my Heavenly Father. The Dr walked into the room and in a perfectly trained tone and neutral expression gave me my verdict. ‘ Ma’am I am sorry but we will have to let this child go, there is nothing we can do at this point. Although the baby is still alive, your water is all gone’. I was immediately numb and lay there with a blank stare on my face. After the Dr left the room, my husband held my hands and began to pray. Shortly thereafter, after inducing labor, I came face to face with my lifeless Caleb. As a newly married young couple, in all our confusion, we went with the hospital’s suggestion to cremate our son.

Two days later, I was back home with a deep feeling of emptiness. It was a gut wrenching pain that left me ready to begin the journey of my life. In this very space and time, Anita the warrior was born. The songwriter arose out of these cremated remains with a prophetic song that would tour the world and bring healing and deliverance to many that were beaten by life.
To be continued …

This Mother’s Day, while we celebrate the gift of motherhood, there are many who like me struggled and paid a painful price to become mothers. Some have buried children like me while others died trying to have children. Some never conceived while others lost their children through miscarriages. Some of you have lost grown up children. Whatever your situation as a mother, you may be reliving the pain today while others celebrate. Maybe you have lost some other dream that you were carrying  in the womb of your soul. You may feel like no one understands but I want you to know that the God who brought me through understands. I stand to testify today of how He gave me beauty for ashes. I pray that You will allow our loving father to heal you and use you to be a blessing to others as he has done with me. Stay strong and know that there is always light at the end of the tunnel. If you need prayer to help you along the path to your healing do not hesitate to inbox me. This Mother’s Day, God has an assignment for you, he wants to use you to be a mother to those who need someone to hold their hands. Sending lots of love your way. 💕💕💕


Stop Judging!

A true prophet’s first assignment is to preach repentance so that the people can change their ways and draw near to God. This is the whole point of Christianity. Christ left his throne to die on the cross so that we can have a way of being reconciled to the father as sinful beings. There is no way to appropriate the benefits of the cross without repentance. I cannot say this enough! Before the blessing comes, there must be repentance. There are so many of us today who would identify as born again spirit filled children of God but the moment we are faced with a call to repentance, we cry foul and accuse the servant of God of being judgmental. We love those Facebook posts and chain letters that simply ask us to type amen and claim our blessing now. We apply the microwave principle even to our Christianity! We will quickly forward those chain letters that ask us to send to 12 people and a blessing will appear in our lives in 7 hours time. My God is not a magician! If only it was this easy to amass wealth and health so many of us would abandon true commitment and service to God for the easy way out. Reminds me of satan appearing to Jesus after his 40 day fast and promising him the world if he would just bow down and worship him. Matthew 4:9 “he said, “if you will bow down and worship me.”
Today the enemy is still promising us the world with cheap scams. He is using Pastors who only preach prosperity, those who preach grace without holiness, those who ask us to send chain letters to our friends in return for quick magical answers to our prayers. He is even using deliverance ministers who lie to us that when we sew a seed offering and they pray for us, we will live a problem free life. Don’t get me wrong, God does answer prayers and he still uses his prophets sometimes to miraculously bless us but this is not the full story of salvation. The enemy is still calling us today to bow to our idols of materialism and instant gratification. He is still promising us a problem free life without repentance and obedience to the word of God.

Our God left his glorious throne and came to this messed up world, suffered for you and I, died on the cross and rose again so that we would be saved. If Jesus suffered all this what makes us think that we can get through life by simply buying miracles or sending out chain letters? Jesus said we must pick up our cross and follow him. Luke 9:23. Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. He said we would be persecuted just like he was. I do not see anywhere in the Bible where Jesus taught us that we could get through life by a lying spirit promising us cheap prosperity through the mouth of a Pastor. On the contrary I see many calls to repentance, many calls to holiness, I see promises of blessings after obedience, I see Paul saying he wants to know Christ through his suffering. Phil 3:10 I want to know Christ–yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death. If anyone is telling us that we can be blessed without changing from our sinful ways, I would keep my distance. The abundance of prosperity gospel teachers has created a body of believers who mistake a call to repentance for judging. We are quick today to say ‘stop judging’ or ‘let God be the judge’ and yet Christ commanded us to preach the full gospel, a gospel that should convict us of our sin and cause us to change. God expects us to preach to each other. Luke 24:47 states, “and that repentance and forgiveness of sins should be proclaimed in his name to all nations, beginning from Jerusalem.”

Luke 17:3 says Pay attention to yourselves! If your brother sins, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive him. God permits us to rebuke each other in love. Anytime you feel like someone is judging you, take a minute and go before your creator and let the Holy Spirit convict you in love to repent and draw closer to your Heavenly Father. We are after all our brother’s keeper! Upon the foundation of repentance sits all the blessings we have been chasing after!

Club Alive and Church Dead!

It is very rampant for us to spend our youth in the club partying and our middle age in the clubhouse with fellow golfers enjoying the lavish lifestyle and before we die, we request a christian burial. Excuse my Christianese but what exactly is a “Christian burial”? oh! I get it now, it means take my corpse to church and let the priest or pastor utter some words over it before we put it back in the ground. By the way if that corpse is in America or Europe, be sure to ship it to the country of origin after all it was “made in Cameroon”. Talk about misplaced priorities!

I may not always be the sharpest knife in the drawer so someone please help me here. What exactly are we hoping to achieve by the corpse being taken to church? Do we believe that the pastor has a hidden way of getting us into heaven through the service he will perform? Or is it that the famous pearly gates to heaven can be found somewhere in the church building? Better yet, I heard that Jesus is the way, the truth and the life, I mean the only way, so maybe we are believing that although we spent our lives running away from church, we can find Jesus here in death. If this same pastor/prophet was fake in life, what makes us trust him in death to manage out grand exit from earth into heaven? My brain is now on overtime. For real folks, what exactly is our thought process here?

Jesus has always been relegated to one who does not count much through out the history of mankind. Man has always thought that he knows better and that he is master of his own destiny. Proverbs 14:12 ‘There is a way which seemeth right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death’. Man has always done things his own way and not bothered much to find out about what the creator thinks. The way we see things is really not going to count in the end. How we process our exit from earth with our village ceremonies which include many satanic rituals and  last for days on end will do nothing for us. Let me help us all with this truth; Jesus calls the shots! Jesus has already determined how to get to heaven and I suspect that deep down, even though we tend not to live lives that are obedient to the ways of God, we know this truth. Our soul knows this truth. This is the reason why an unbeliever will make a request on his dying bed to be given a church burial. The sad fact is, a church burial will not get us into heaven, knowing Jesus while we were alive is what will.

Let me leave you to ponder on the word of God. Ecclesiastes 12:1 Remember your Creator in the days of your youth, before the days of trouble come and the years approach when you will say, “I find no pleasure in them”. If you are looking to make heaven you will have to get the right keys to open those pearly gates. Verses 13-14 say ‘The conclusion, when all has been heard, is: fear God and keep His commandments, because this applies to every person. For God will bring every act to judgment, everything which is hidden, whether it is good or evil’.

Jesus is Lord, he is the way the truth and the life. He is keeping tabs of our club activities just like he is of our church activities. Draw nigh to him now  and secure your pass to heaven.


Truth Nugget – RIP?

Friends the time to pray and seek the Lord is now oh, not when someone has died and then we start praying for their souls to rest in peace. Rest in peace actually means nothing to be honest. If you pray and serve God now, you are assured a place in his bosom. If you do not have time for God now and you die, no matter how much your family and friends pray for you to rest in peace or for you to rest in the Lord’s bosom, you will be a candidate for eternal damnation. I know most people don’t like these kinds of messages but this message is true love. We the servants of God need to stop fooling our people with messages that will not help their souls. The truth will help us all to position correctly before we die. As we say in Camer pidgin “pack fine” now oh!

You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free!

Lord have mercy on Cameroon

A Prayer for my country Cameroon

Lord I stand before you like your servant Abraham did, I stand in the name of Jesus, my righteousness. Please do not pass me by oh Lord, please do not pass my country Cameroon by. Lord I repent on behalf of my people, I repent for the sin of idolatry oh God, we have gone our own way and we have become lovers of ourselves, we have esteemed ourselves higher than you Lord. In self pride we have believed in our own abilities and built our country on our academics and politics. Father we have rejected your ways and mocked those who serve you in Cameroon. Father we have served so many other gods in our nation and deserve your wrath but I ask for your mercy today for Cameroon through Christ Jesus who died to wash away our sins.

Lord you are a merciful God. Your mercies are new every morning and you are rich in mercy. Have mercy on us oh Lord according to your unfailing love. Lord you are compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love. Wash away our iniquity and cleanse us from our sins. Who is like you oh God, you do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy.

Father I pray that you will raise men in Cameroon who will direct their children and household after you to keep your ways. I pray that we will begin to do what is right and just in Cameroon so that you will bless our nation. Oh Lord do not destroy the righteous with the wicked in Cameroon. Father there are more than 10 righteous people in Cameroon, there are more than 50 righteous in Cameroon. For the sake of your faithful children in Cameroon father please forgive our nation and may Cameroon become a blessing to its people, may Cameroon become a blessing to Africa, may Cameroon become a blessing to the world, all for your glory.

Father I thank you that you have heard my cry and the cry of all your faithful children from Cameroon. Father I thank you that you are working to bring a change in Cameroon. I thank you that Cameroon will be changed for your glory. All this I ask in the name of Jesus, Amen.

Bible Reading: Genesis 18: 16-33

16When the men got up to leave, they looked down toward Sodom, and Abraham walked along with them to see them on their way. 17Then the Lord said, “Shall I hide from Abraham what I am about to do? 18Abraham will surely become a great and powerful nation, and all nations on earth will be blessed through him.c 19For I have chosen him, so that he will direct his children and his household after him to keep the way of the Lord by doing what is right and just, so that the Lord will bring about for Abraham what he has promised him.”

20Then the Lord said, “The outcry against Sodom and Gomorrah is so great and their sin so grievous 21that I will go down and see if what they have done is as bad as the outcry that has reached me. If not, I will know.”

22The men turned away and went toward Sodom, but Abraham remained standing before the Lord.d 23Then Abraham approached him and said: “Will you sweep away the righteous with the wicked? 24What if there are fifty righteous people in the city? Will you really sweep it away and not sparee the place for the sake of the fifty righteous people in it? 25Far be it from you to do such a thing—to kill the righteous with the wicked, treating the righteous and the wicked alike. Far be it from you! Will not the Judge of all the earth do right?”

26The Lord said, “If I find fifty righteous people in the city of Sodom, I will spare the whole place for their sake.”

27Then Abraham spoke up again: “Now that I have been so bold as to speak to the Lord, though I am nothing but dust and ashes, 28what if the number of the righteous is five less than fifty? Will you destroy the whole city for lack of five people?”

“If I find forty-five there,” he said, “I will not destroy it.”

29Once again he spoke to him, “What if only forty are found there?”

He said, “For the sake of forty, I will not do it.”

30Then he said, “May the Lord not be angry, but let me speak. What if only thirty can be found there?”

He answered, “I will not do it if I find thirty there.”

31Abraham said, “Now that I have been so bold as to speak to the Lord, what if only twenty can be found there?”

He said, “For the sake of twenty, I will not destroy it.”

32Then he said, “May the Lord not be angry, but let me speak just once more. What if only ten can be found there?”

He answered, “For the sake of ten, I will not destroy it.”

33When the Lord had finished speaking with Abraham, he left, and Abraham returned home.


The keys to the Treasure House

This weekend, I was humbled to be part of a women’s conference with the theme ‘bringing out the jewel in you’ amidst some powerful women of God who shared so many valuable nuggets on the process of becoming a jewel in Christ. As someone that serves the body of Christ by leading people to freedom from spiritual oppression, I shared my perspective on how you become a jewel.

Many of you know deep within that you are supposed to be more than what your life represents at the moment. You know there is more for you and you want more. You have done all you know to do to get to that next level but there seems to be no change. You have fasted, prayed, been to conferences but you are still experiencing stagnation in your life, or maybe even a declining stance in life. This is an experience that I have personally been through and it can be extremely frustrating. So what is the missing link?

There is an unseen agent that does not want us to become that jewel. As I shared at the conference, I believe that the secret lies in Genesis 3:15 And I will put enmity between you and the woman, and between your offspring and hers; he will crush your head, and you will strike his heel.” God himself is speaking here and letting us in on a key to our freedom from bondage. This sounds like warfare to me and although the church tends to shy away from addressing and teaching on this, spiritual warfare is a fact of life. You see the enemy is in a war with the woman and her seed, whether the woman acknowledges it or not. Christ came to help us win this war. 1 John 3:8 … For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that he might destroy the works of the devil.

Bringing out the jewel involves spiritual warfare! There must be a victorious battle in every oyster for the jewel to be brought out. If you are going to birth your destiny and walk in your purpose, you will have to learn how to take a hold of the legal certificate of freedom Jesus gave us and use that to posses your freedom. If I am a homeless person living under a bridge and someone gives me a title to a luxurious fully paid for 4000 sq ft house with my name on it, if I return to sleeping under the bridge, my condition will not change. I must understand what the title means for my life and how I can use it to get the keys to my new home in order to possess and occupy my new home.

Thank God for Jesus! We don’t have to loose this battle. We can learn how to crush the head of the enemy. Psalm 144:1 says Blessed be the Lord my strength which teacheth my hands to war, and my fingers to fight. Remember that Christ has won the battle for you and I, he has given us the title to the treasure house. Colossians 2:15 And having spoiled principalities and powers, he made a shew of them openly, triumphing over them in it.
Use your title today and demand your rights to occupy, poses your possessions in Jesus name!

My shameful secrets

If you do not have things in your life that you have kept secret because you feel ashamed or embarrassed,  please stand up. I need to meet you! I know that there are many people in this part of the world with the name Jesus but your last name is certainly in Spanish and definitely not in Greek as in the anointed one. Jesus Christ is the only one who never sinned. As for you and I, and even that sweet grandma next door, we all have had skeletons in our closet. As you read this you may still have hidden secrets that cause you to have sleepless nights at the thought of anyone finding out. Maybe that envious friend is trying hard to drag your skeletons out of the closet into the exhibition hall downtown so the world can see that you are not as good as you have led people to think you are.

Truth is, we have all done some things in our lives that made us feel really ashamed, then we prayed hard that we would not be exposed and disgraced. Sometimes the errors we made were things that could have cost us a  job, a marriage or a valued friendship. Most often those around us are only too eager to gossip about our weaknesses and mistakes. Because we don’t want to be ridiculed, we have learnt how to keep those secrets in the darkest closets.

Today I want to encourage you to stop hiding.  The Bible says that all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. Even those friends who are mocking you have sinned, yes even the church folk! Those who look like they are perfect have sinned. The friends on Facebook and Whatsapp having a party about your shame have sinned. Your parents, teacher, pastor and this writer have sinned! In fact many who appear faultless have probably just mastered the art of keeping their own shameful secrets well tucked away.

The devil loves it when we hide things because when we hide we will not be able to get the help we desperately need. After Adam and Eve sinned in the garden by eating the fruit, what happened? You guessed right, they became ashamed and hid from God. This is how the devil deceives us. There is nothing that God does not see. The good news is, there is nothing too shameful that Jesus cannot forgive if we come to him rather than hide. There is no mistake that His blood cannot wash. 1 John 1:7 says that Jesus is the light and his blood cleanses us from all sin. Isaiah 1:18 says ‘though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow’. Allow the light of Christ to shine in every dark place in your life. Let his light come into every dark closet and the Holy Spirit will help you to move past your shameful past or present. So what if people laugh at you or look at you differently because they found out about something you did? When the woman was caught in adultery in John 8:1-11, Jesus asked anyone who had never sinned to cast the first stone at her and we all know that not even one person could do so. All Jesus is asking of you is that you go and sin no more.

I have learnt to use my mistakes, weaknesses and shameful secrets to testify when I am ministering to others. When you have repented of your previous ways, every skeleton changes from a thing of shame to a source of power to transform another life by the finished work on the cross through the blood of Jesus. Let those who want to laugh at you have their fun at your expense, when Jesus is done with you, they will come to you for help. Like Job’s friends, they will one day need you to pray for them. Can the dry bones live again? I dare say yes, every skeleton that encounters Jesus, when the wind of the Holy Ghost blows on it, it will have new life and  become a mighty soldier in the army of the most high God. As for me, I’m trading my shame, I’m  laying them down for the joy of the Lord!



Easter: Biblical or pagan godess?

My Bible teaches me that I will know the truth and the truth shall set me free. This is why I believe that truth heals me. If I profess to be Christian and accept that the Bible is the word of God, if I use the Bible as my standard for truth, then anything contrary to Biblical truth is suspect. As much as we all grew up with various Christian traditions which have become a part of our lives, we must be open to examine everything we do under the guise of Christianity with the Bible as the yardstick. This is the only way we will walk in the light of His word.

Easter in one of those cute little traditions that we have so fallen in love with, especially in the west, where we celebrate with Easter bunnies and all these awesomely colorful eggs. Don’t we just love to see that sweet little toddler all dressed up in spring patterns and colors racing alongside her counterparts in an attempt at gathering the most eggs for her lovely basket? If you are like me, you too got carried away with the apparent beauty of this tradition but as Christians, have we stopped to ask why we do this? Is the word Easter in the Bible? If it is, please help a sister out here. Did we see the apostles or any of the prophets with baskets gathering eggs? I know there were 5 loaves and 2 fishes but I don’t remember that there were some eggs in the mix, do you? Can you imagine the apostle Paul dressed as an Easter bunny as a way of celebrating Christ’s resurrection?

You may be thinking, why not let sleeping dogs lie. Ok, I get it, let’s not rock the boat and upset the status quo after all this is ratified by the Christian establishment. I know that it is easier to go with the flow of things the way our parents, pastors and priests have always done it but is this not how the Pharisees and Sadducees held unto traditions to a point where the truth stood before them in the person of Jesus the Christ and they rejected and crucified him?

Let me leave you with some food for thought. If you really want to continue celebrating Easter, please do your own research and find out more on the following:

  • Easter is derived from the word Eastre, a goddess of spring in ancient pagan religion
  • Both the rabbit and the eggs are symbols of fertility in ancient Babylonian tradition

How do we end up with a pagan goddess and 2 Babylonian symbols of fertility for the celebration of Christ’s death and resurrection? How does this end up being more about the sales of bunnies, baskets and eggs, and about the branding and commercialization of the term “Easter” by business people who are not promoting Christ. All of this leaves the church behind the scenes sounding like an afterthought and struggling to remind us that we are really celebrating Jesus. Could we have used terms such as “Resurrection Day” “Passover” or any other terms that retain the true meaning of what we are celebrating? It is time we Christians stand up for the truth and stop allowing the devil to run the show. Like you, I am learning to identify truth daily. I pray for boldness in you and me to stand for truth once we know it. Let’s take back those things which mean so much to our faith. Why are we christianizing pagan holidays and traditions? God warns us about this in Deuteronomy 12:4 “Do not worship God like the pagans worship their idols.”  Let us be like the Bereans who “received the word with all readiness, and searched the Scriptures daily to find out whether these things were so” (Acts 17:10-11) Rather than just go along with the world’s christianization of pagan traditions, let’s always check how the things we do measure against Biblical truth before joining the party!





Purify Me – Lyrics, listen, loot the store!

Many have requested the lyrics for this heaven inspired song. Straight from the deep, stirred up in the secret place, meditate on these words as you enjoy the sweet presence of the lover of your soul. Remember to bare all before the King, for in his presence, there is no pretense, he sees everything and still loves you so!


As I come in your presence

I lay down my guard

There is no pretense

As to who I am

So I lay on the altar

My shame and my pain

Intimacy is what I want


Oooh you are my lover ooh oh oh

Oooh ooh you are my keeper

The Lover of my soul

I give you my heart

Oooh ooh I give you my life



Purify me, sanctify me take me to a higher place

Justify me, elevate me take me on a holy chase

Rectify me, beautify me take me on a higher plain

Satisfy me, edify me now I got a brand new name


Humbled in your presence

I stand here in awe

I can see you in your glory

I know now my need

How I hunger for your healing

Stripped off my pride

I know you’re my

Only ho ho ho ho hope!


Purify me, oh

Sanctify me, yay

Justify me eh eh eh

Elevate me oh

Rectify me ahemn

Beautify me eh eh

Satisfy me edify me now I got a brand new name


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